I'm named barricade because I contain everything behind high walls around treacherous battle fields. Lately I've been surrounded by struggles with work, and being broke, constant hunger, and the struggle with the fast from bread. My car doesn't work and I've been doubting my life while everything else flourishes. So God I ask what do you want from me? I keep trying and trying and failing and failing, what must I succeed from to finally achieve what you need from me. I can't talk to anyone cause they always look down on me as a project and some little child when I scream I'm not under you. Either I'm confident by not speaking who I am and whats wrong with me or I'm a pessimist. SO I ask you all what do you want from me? I keep trying to be better and achieve my goals but end up falling to the back burner and I can't even get the littlest bit of teaching or training so I ask you coaches, what do you want from me? Then I ask my family am I worthless? I can't save you all or even myself so i ask what do you want from me? And I ask myself how do you become happy? What do you want from me?
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