Catch up

So I haven't written in a while. I have to admit I've been kind of afraid to write. The kids I teach tennis too during school hours are some of the worst kids I've ever seen in my life. They have no respect, no fear for authority, no fear for death, no fear of even each other. They only fear the opinion developed if they aren't apart of the cool crowd. The blatantly curse in front of you, and try to steal as much as possible.

I remember asking the PE teacher if the next session I have will have more kids or less and she told me " It either depends on if they are absent or suspended."

Since when is this acceptable to let the youth of tomorrow be swallowed by the sins of our pasts? The principle even stated during class " I don't even know why any of you are laughing, half of you won't pass the 8th grade." So it's ok to ruin your life before it even starts. These kids don't have dreams and if they were to have a flash foward it would either be dead or still in the same house that keeps them prisoner today.

How do you save something that fights to be saved? There are flickers of light though, a young man showed up and he named the entire top ten men of the ATP tennis association. And he offered to help his fellow students. His teacher told me " he's in honors everything, he's a 3.5 student, and is incredibly smart; just acts out because he doesn't want anyone to know he's smart."

So a man has a candle and is surrounded by hundreds playing in the dark, and since there are so many, he hides his candle so he will be accepted. He deserves much more than that. I'm just not sure what to do with these children. I also started talking to a friend and I'm not sure I want to even talk, because I don't think I'm good enough to be desired. It's weird because I still live at home and don't have my own everything I feel undesirable. But some reason people see potential in me for more in work, life, love, and all that jive. Well thats whats been going on in a nut shell hope your still reading whoever you are. Peace.