Low battery
So today was a fairly simple day. Though I am kind of off set by the fact I haven't hit a tennis ball since Sunday, but everyone needs a day to recharge their battery. So I sat and worked on some comic work. I've improved vastly on my story telling ability and line work. But I'm a perfectionist in my life so I work hard to continue to be the best. And this is a constant in anything I do in life. I fight for what I want and anyone who gets in my way I see it as a challenge. I equate sitting still as not being productive. But who is to say that sitting still isn't being productive in one's self? The big guy is always finding ways to have me self reflect and sit still. He knows that I don't like to sit watching TV all day or even just talking to people all day. Being the true introvert that I am, I leaned back into my seat and contemplated. Everyone is going to struggle, no matter how much money you have there will be trouble around the corner. So even if I've paid all my bills off and loans and just anything I need, being the perfectionist I am I know it will not be enough. Now don't get me wrong, I don't need more stuff; but there are things in life that I haven't experienced that my sheer desire to explore and experience would drive me to do.
Come to think of it now, even if I do these things what will I overall be accomplishing? A friend of mine said he wants to do things but not have more responsibility from it. SO I see life as this, no matter who you are, someones always following you. Now it depends on the company you keep on who follows your steps. Could be God, the devil, a kid, a friend, brother, ext. But honestly, when they are following you, it's up to you to decide whether your running from them or leading them. So in the end of it all, the things I do now, are setting up the road for my children, friends, and family. Oh and you can't lead God but he will always be around all the days of your life. So as I sit back and look at the amazing things I've done. All the awards I've won, my two bachelor degrees, my painting, posters, photos, and loved ones; I've come to find that everything i need in life I already have.
It is my constant desire to achieve what I've been placed on this planet to do that will be my eternal struggle. So my batter isn't low because of having to deal with so much, it's because I'm fighting to do what I've been placed here to do. Battery recharged.
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