I've had my run ins with women. I'm no player or some amazing guy who gets women all the time. But I've done pretty well for myself and honestly I don't want to do well anymore. I've come to the strong conclusion that I want to have the real deal. I can't hang out with multiple women, or chat up a bunch and be a major flirt. I miss missing someone; the "One". I've had these thoughts, dreams at times of just laughing uncontrollably with the great friend love. I have this love that is dying to burst out and be shared with the world, but it seems the world isn't ready for great love. The world is stuck on temporary satisfaction.
Sometimes I wake up believing there will be this amazing women who is my support, and a gift from God. But for now and forever the only gift I need is God. I don't really desire sex, or the physical things of this world. I do lust, don't get my wrong; but I don't want that. I just want someone to come home to and share my thoughts and this colorful world I've created around me. believe me this world I live in, is much more than the bitter grey it's portrayed to be. It's vibrant and full of life, laughter, and beauty. I've painted myself int
o so many of my images or art works. Though it is complete with me and God being the muse, Is it wrong for me to want to build upon it? So I don't desire to photograph multiple subjects. I just want one great piece of art. Hope this makes sense.
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